Career Fair

HOLY BLOODY HELL!!!!!! I'M FREAKING THE HELL OUT!! I can't handle this! It's all so.... so terrifying.... so unnatural..... so STUPID!!!! GOD DAMMIT!!!!

I feel INCOMPETENT in every way I can. First, I'm not a big fan of my resume. Second, I don't know about my appearance, I look gangly and I'm not the best dresser... I'm hoping my friends will give my some confidence in that department.. Third, I CAN'T TALK TO PEOPLE!!! Not the way I'm suppose to!! I mean, I read some "sample" hellos you're suppose to say to people. They are SOOOOO unnatural. Nobody TALKS like that. sure they may write like that, but hell, I just don't go around saying things like:

"Hello, I'm Jo Mendle, a sophomore in mechanical engineering. I am interested in pursuing a co-op position with Kohler Co. staring in January. This semester I'm completing Mechanics of Materials and Manufacturing Processes, and know that I would be able to make contributions as a co-op right away. I've worked part-time in the machine shop on campus and am excellent at managing my time wisely. I am hoping we can discuss how my qualifications would be an asset to Kohler."

That sounds like a robot sentence. There is NO way I can say that naturally without laughing historically or breaking down and crying from nerves! Please, can someone tell me that I don't have to do this!?!?! PLEASE for the love of GOD!!! I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS! I've put off doing all the prep work, cause it mentally terrifies me and now, the fair is TOMORROW!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

currently, I hate my life. and honestly if I DO go and I DO somehow manage to get an interview, it'll be a HELL! because I have to freak out all over again for the interview process. it's all just a nightmare. T_T